I forgotted

Dear Lucy,
I've noticed a trend, as you get older, I blog less. Must have something to do with...oh I don't know....you being so freaking demanding...

Your tooth is just sitting there torturing you and there's not much I can do to help you with it. So that means you have been essentially screaming all day. You only sleep when attached to a boob. Which in turn means that I get nothing done. Including blogging. Though I suppose I could blog while feeding you....but that requires planning. Sort of....by the time you can read these letters you will have realized that planning is not my strong suit.

You said Duck today. There is no doubt about it in my mind. You were playing with the rubber duck. You looked at it and said..."DUHK" so I played a little game with you and you said it a few more times. So it's official. Your first word. Maybe I'm looking into it too much, but it was pretty apparent to me.

Most baby's say "dada" or "mama" first. Guess we know where your priorities lie....

You also pulled a little stunt where you tried to stand up on your own. I'm 100% positive it ended in a face plant...because I watched you and it was hilarious. But it's scaring the crap out of me. I can hardly handle crawling. If you walk early I'll just lock you in the dog crate at night with a bowl of water and some toys. Maybe my mornings will be a little more peaceful. At least you wont whine when you have to pee like the dogs! PRAISE JESUS FOR DIAPERS!

AND!!!! You've started eating a little better. Today you had some thoop with me. Good ol homemade....soup....I can't even tell you what kind since I made it up. SOOO delicious. And you had some rice cereal masked in some sort of oatmeal/apple jarred stuff you seem to like.

And then you had a big girl poop.

Ew

I love you!

Mum!

All I want for easter is my two front teeth!

Dear Lulu,
It's happened! It's REALLY happened! You have a tooth. Ok so it's like..a sliver of a tooth, but it's there! FOR REAL! I've been waiting months for this moment, and yet praying that it would never come....I've been thinking all day about what sort of changes this means for us....something so small is such an interruption :P For instance, now I have to brush your teeth. Ok not such a big deal...but one more thing I have to worry about. Also, how will this affect our nursing!? Hopefully not at all, but I know you well enough to know that you will use every chance you get to remind me that you've grown some pearly whites...or a pearly white. Whatever.... It's also going to change how you look. I've grown so accustomed to your gummy little smile. I'm going to miss it for sure. I figure I wont be around when you get to the point in your life that your back to toothless, and if I am....well you definitely wont be as cute as you are now...

I know it's just another stage but for some reason that little cut in your gum with the little white sliver is FREAKIN ME OUT!

In other news, you may well have started talking. I didn't make the connection at first, but today it clicked that you were pointing at Hudson and saying "DAH. DAH!" I think you're saying "DOG" LOL. Like Jessica said today...most babies learn "Dad" first because the Mom is always saying it...but since Dad's gone, you get to listen to me complain about the dogs :D I'll keep my ears open and see if you keep it up, but it's been a couple days now... It's pretty cute.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

You had a butt rash today. The first in almost ever....I was pretty excited to get to use the vaseline again. I only have about a million giant tubs of it.....

~Ma

You are a blessing!

Dear Lucy,
You were so good today that I had to write a thank you note. I managed to do some gardening, go boxing, clean up some of the house, do the laundry (like 4 loads), bring a trunk full of baby clothes to the clothes closet, sort of play with the dogs, and even eat 3 meals....

I'm impressed. You took 2 decent naps! But then...you are still awake at 10:40pm....and wide awake at that. And naked.

You are so much happier naked. I think I'll leave you naked all summer. Maybe it'll potty train you by the time you're 1.

Don't we all wish....

<3 always, ma

Ahhhh, the good life....ROFL ya..right...

Dear Lucy,
We're down to our last $20 I think ;) Dad gets paid on Saturday and I think all will be ok since there will be some extra after "le mortgage" comes out. Woo! And if he gets laid off I think he gets the rest of his money super soon so that is wonderful news toO!

Today was SOOO beautiful. We went outside and I did some minor yard clean up while you played in the play pen. I really wanted to mow the lawn but I had no gas and didn't want to go buy any...because it's our last bit of cash ;) But that's ok! The grass looks super green long. Mom likey....

I think it's official that Tripper is housetrained. I'm quite pleased with myself since Hudson still is a bit of a retard when it comes to going to the bathroom in the house. But that's my fault. I should try to retrain him again. While I'm still training Tripper that is....could work!

You only clapped once today. It's kind of discouraging. I feel like as soon as you learn something you should be constantly doing it, but apparently that is not the case.

Anyways, I'm hoping you'll nurse off to sleep in the next 10 minutes so I can get some little things done and then POOF! We'll snuggle up in bed........

Oh yeah! So last night I had this dream that Jenny and I were driving somewhere and you were in the backseat and all of a sudden you said "Hello Lucy!" REALLY loud. And you'd never talked before! How crazy is that. The night before I dreamed you walked, and last night I dreamed you talked....you're getting all big and stuff :/

And some good news, you didn't fall off anything today. But you did bash your head against the wall. Completely your doing I might add. Thats what you get for resisting the high chair.

I love you mucho!

Ma

Hushhh....

Dear Lulu,
You are the most BEAUTIFUL sleeping baby ever :D You woke up about an hour and a half ago and thwarted my plans to sleep in...but I forgive you now that you passed out after I pretended to still be asleep. You are soooo uber sweet. I just want to pinch your little candy cheeks.

Baby time is today at the library, but I think if the sun comes out first we'll pass and have some play time with the dogs outside in the yard. Or we can walk to the library and back...I dont know yet. Why is 8:30 still too early for me? I think I've been spoiled ;)

Love you!
Ma

If you're happy and you know it clap your hands!!! CLAP CLAP!

Dear Lucy,
New milestone today!!! This morning I spent a little time singing with you and you clapped along! In front of people I might ad. You never do anything in front of people. I'm so excited since this brings a whole new dimension to our sing along times! You've just been so much fun since becoming more interactive. You're actually a little person now as opposed to a little lump of crab face. And your hair is coming in soooooooo nice. I'm so excited to dress you up.

I just had to write about this. I'm pretty much set for at least a month now.

Oh, you fell off the bed again this morning. Can I get sent to jail for that? I know I should stop leaving you in it unattended. But you start off asleep.....its not my fault you wake up on the floor.....right?

I'm sorry, I love you :/

<3 Ma

It's been WAYYYY too long

Dear Lucy,
I'm sorry I haven't been on top of this whole deal :D It's been over 20 days! LOL. I've just been completely swamped. You are crawling around like crazy. Wouldn't seem like it so much to the outside world but I think you're so stunned when we're in a new place that you put your brakes on and investigate from a safe spot...but when we're home you've got a little motor going and I can hardly keep up :/ On top of that I've got the puppy still...looks like we're keeping him. You'll know him as Tripper, or Trip as I call him for short, because all dogs need a nickname....He's possibly the smartest puppy I've ever met, but for some reason I can't get rid of him. However, he's still a puppy and he takes A LOT of time. House training him would be so easy if I didn't have to worry about bringing you outside with me. Sometimes I leave you in the playpen (forgive me...LOL), but it has to be done. At least I can hear you screaming from outside ;)

Dad finally found a job! But he said today that he might come home on Friday if they don't have another rig for him to go to. It sounds like they should have a spot for him, but I don't think it would be good for him to come home. I don't know :/ I'm still not sure what God wants exactly. I get so excited for things and they crash down all around me constantly so I'm just going to let this ride go and not get upset if it doesn't work out. But Dad's been doing good at his job and I know everything will work out regardless of what happens.

We've also been busy with baby groups, and you've been going boxing with me :D While it's a joy to have you with me, it sure is stressful. On top of all this I'm TRYING to keep the house clean. Between me being in and out of the house and the dogs it's pretty much a full time job sweeping alone, nevermind the rest of it :/

SOOO, that's my long winded apology. It would sure be nice to relax :D

I'm really enjoying my time with you. You've changed SOOO much in the last few weeks. It's really amazing. I love how much you laugh now. You find so many things funny you fill my heart with love every time your eyes light up. You are one fantastical kid.

Except you're STILL teething. Get over it already......if those teeth don't pop out soon I'm gonna pull them through myself. At least I don't have to wake up at night to "console" yourself. Oh the joys of bed-sharing.....


Love always, mom

Dear Lulu,
It's official...you're moving. Everywhere. I can't keep track of you half the time...I'm definitely not cut out for this "mom" thing lol. You wont eat, you wont sleep in your crib, and now you wont stop moving. And I have so much to do around here, it's just frustrating. I'll probably just keel over dead when you start to walk.

Good thing you're cute....


<3 mum

It's time!

Dear Lucy,
Just wanted to let you know that right at this very moment Dad has begun his physical test to see if he can get a job with this company. I haven't felt so many different emotions all at once since you were born. It's pretty intense, a struggle between *knowing* he'll pass, and *knowing* that even if he doesn't it's all in God's plan.

Why is life this continual struggle? When will I just learn that God will always provide? I wouldn't miss the worrying at all....

Love you so much, hope you're prayin for Dad :D

Ma

You make me so lonely baby, I get so lonelyyy, I GET SO LONELY! I COULD DIE!

Dear Lulu,
Here we are, you and me. Back at square one. Dad's gone again :( I'm glad you can't understand how hard it is. This last year has been so difficult for me, starting with spending almost my entire pregnancy alone to now being alone with you and 8 dogs and a house. And it's already spring temperatures so I'm thinking SO much about doing stuff in the yard but there's just no chance it will happen.

Anyways, I wanted you to know that your Dad is my best friend. I love him so much that I hope that you even love the man you marry 1/2 as much. Of course he's not perfect, he drops socks like deer drop poops, he eats way too much junk food, he swears like a sailor, and in general makes more than his share of mistakes.

But he's an amazing guy, and an amazing dad. He will do everything in his power to make sure we're safe. He'll do things like drive 1500 km to a non-existent job in the hopes he'll find something to provide for us. He'll cook dinner every single day....until we run out of dishes (haha). There are just so many small things I can't even write about. How he looks at you just makes me break down. How he plays with you and gives you kisses.




I mean. He's a manly man. GRRRRRRRRRUFF!

<3 you always! Ma

(I'm going to go cry now!)

Wow

Dear Lucy,
Time goes so fast when your Dad is home!!! I've hardly had a chance to update this thing. Weirdest part is that it's not like we're accomplishing much...just spending time together while he's here :D

The only reason I have a chance now is because I got up before you both, and I'm sitting here listening to you guys chit chat in bed. I'm going to miss the incessant ramblings when he's gone. Both yours and his.

Well,
it's a short one today. I may or may not bring you swimming today. Depends how much lazier I get. We've been sick for 3 days....I'm soooo over it.

Hope to God this will pass soon!

<3 Ma

Goodnight muh dahrlin'

Dear Lu,
I'm just wondering how long it's going to take before it's EASY to get you to sleep by yourself. Right now it's a total eggshell situation.

Step 1: Lay you down EVER........SO..........GENTLY. DO NOT LET GO!
Step 2: Slowly, and I do mean slowly, edge my hands around your body...do not let go.
Step 3: With free hand, move the hand of yours that is still holding onto me.
Step 4: Slowly release hand that is still holding.
Step 5: SLOWLY lift body off of the mattress as though I'm hooked up to some pulley system.
Step 6: Point emphatically at the dogs. Then point at the door. Shake finger repeatedly. Assume they understand you mean get the hell out of the room.
Step 7: Tiptoe at slug speed paying special attention to not step in the spots where the hardwood creaks.

Once I'm out of the room it doesn't seem to matter too much how much noise is made. But until I get outside that door, my heart is just pounding.

I especially enjoy it when I FINALLY get to step 7, and you all of a sudden realize that pillow laying over your body is not an arm.

You have the puniest, whine-cry.

And yet I still refuse to read babywise. Must have something to do with being a sucker.

<3 you always

Ma

Wow

Dear Lucy
So I was sitting here on the computer playing with you in my lap when it finally smacked me in the face. You DO look different! I guess when you're with someone 24/7 you really don't notice how quickly things change, but you're becoming a little person! You don't seem even 1/2 as fragile as you did before. Your head is HUMONGOUS. You smile like crazy, have some REAL HAIR! Not just that wispy baby crap. It was almost overwhelming. Everyone always says to treasure the time that your baby is small, that it goes so fast. And it does!

But I'm glad it's over. I like you much more how you are now. I'll leave the boring babies for the sentimental mom-types.

Can't wait til you can punch the dog.....GROW FASTER!

Love ma

Ahhhhhhhhh.........

Dear Lulu,
Phil was write when he said it was good to write more than one a day for when the time came that I didn't want to write. Unfortunately, it's not that I didn't want to write, it's that I didn't really have time! It's a lot harder when Dad is home because he gets flusterated if I'm on the computer more than him ;)

You have definitely hopped on the food wagon now. Usually I just give you pieces of veggies to gnaw on and you seem to enjoy that. Cucumber, carrot, peas, etc. You're happy with it all. We haven't spoon fed you in awhile, but I think that comes from being lazy :) That and I really don't want you to stop breastfeeding :/

The weather has been intense the last week. Lots of wind and rain. Our kitchen ceiling has been leaking. One more thing to pay for! And Dad doesn't want to rent....pffft. I'd rather have no equity and be able to just phone someone up to fix stuff for me. Owning a house rather sucks, to be honest. I wish we could just pick up and go wherever we wanted whenever we wanted! Who invented this world where the "dream" is to have 1.8 kids, own a big colonial house, have huge retirement savings, stainless steel appliances, a bmw (in addition to the family van...for your 1.8 kids and their 1.8 friends), go to yoga classes 3 days a week, and tai chi the other 4...

It all sounds so standard now. Irrelevant. There's this internal vice telling me to start packing all my goods away for you when you're older. Don't be surprised if there isn't. Unless Dad gets a reallllly good job in the next little while, it's unlikely that there will be anything extra for anybody in the future :D

I guess there's lots of time to worry about that now. I'm actually not worried about your schooling. I just don't want to own a house anymore. Stupid money pit......

<3 mom.

Here I go again on my own! doo doo dooo dooo

DOWN THE ONLY ROAD I'VE EVERY KNOWN! LIKE A DRIFTER I WAS BORN TO WALK ALONEEEEEEE

but I made up my mind...
I aint wastin' no more time!!!!!!!!

Dear Lucy,
You have heard me sing you that song wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy more than any human ever should. But that's ok. Because you have no choice but to listen. And you're the only who does :)

So you gave me a little scare today. ARMY CRAWL! Please be a fluke...I can't bear to have to deal with it now lol. A crawling little baby would definitely be the last nail in the coffin for me. I haven't even cleaned my house totally yet, nevermind baby proofed. But you're already heaving up on your knees and revving up your little engine.

You are putting fear into my heart.

To top it all off, you've been teething badly. Meaning you SCREAM like a banshee for no apparent reason. And it would seem that the only thing that helps is distracting you. Orajel didn't work, gripe water, chewing on stuff. Of course not. The only thing that will make you forget your swollen little gums is watching mom hop around on one foot in a hula skirt with 6 teddy bears while making a stupid face. I'm happy to oblige.

I let you eat oatmeal today. I didn't even check if I was "allowed" to or not. I just did it...because..."F" the "systems". I'm so sick of looking up when to do things and when not to do things. What did people do before the internet? If it was anything like now, they certainly didn't ask their doctors. Getting a hold of my doctor is impossible. Don't see how that would help.....

Anyways. I pumped a little bit yesterday and so I put some milk into the oatmeal and mixed er up. Put it in a bowl and gave you a spoon and let you go for it. Don't know how much made it into your mouth, but you had fun. I'll put up a picture. Maybe we'll do oatmeal again tomorrow and I think our next food will be lentils. I'm really trying to avoid pablum and other cereals. If the first thing I ate was that nasty mush I'd starvation strike. "Teach your child to love food by starting with bland sewage water"

I see the logic.

Anyways. I LOVEEEEEEEEE Lentils. So thats next. Then squash. Maybe pumpkin...mmmmmmmm pumpkin.

Maybe I will enjoy this feeding part. I certainly enjoy the eating part.

Dad's getting ready to leave soon. Before Monday I think. Interesting to see for how long this time. I hope he finds something. He deserves it for all the hard work he's been putting into it. Everything will work out :D

We keep pretty busy. We now have things on Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Saturday and Monday to work around the house. Except city hall meetings on Monday nights.... Oh, and a girls night on one of the saturdays....

WE'RE GOING TO HAVE SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bahahahhahahaha...maybe ;)


Love you so much SO SO SO SO SO much and forever and ever.

Ma

Time flies!

Dear Lulu,
I didn't even realize that I hadn't written in 2 days! I just haven't been on the ball since Dad came home. Seems like everything piles up and then we have to take care of it all at once.

Today at baby group I noticed something peculiar. You made a very admirable attempt at crawling!?!?! I REALLY hope that this isn't something you surprise me with in the next couple weeks. Particularly not if it happens after Dad leaves again. I get the feeling you were watching little Ryder zoom around on Sunday night and took a few mental notes. This is one milestone I'm not looking forward to.

Yesterday, we caved in to another milestone. One I've been vocally avoiding. We fed you solids. Like full out sat you down and spoon fed you (as opposed to me just letting you monkey around with goopy foods. Something about a baby with goopy food everywhere just tickles my funny bone). You had sweet potato again. You HATED it when I let you play with it. But this time it was mushed up REAL good and you gobbled it up. So we let you have a little more today. Guess we'll just progress from here. It had to happen.

Tina just might be delighted to know that I took her advice and let you munch on a bone. That's right...I gave my daughter a bone to chew on. Like she's one of the dog pack.

This didn't seem so strange until I realized that we talk to you in puppy commands. "Lulu, give. Give the spoon, Lulu. Giiiiivvveeeee.......GOOD GIRL!"

"SIT!"

<3 ma

Here comes the rainnnn again! Falling on my head like a.......

Memory?

Dear Lucy!
It's your second storm ever! And this one is gonna be way better than the first one. Up to 200mm of rain over the next day and windy! I hope the power goes out :D I can't wait until you're older and we get to light a fire and roast marshmallows in it and tell scary stories and play monopoly...and cheat at monopoly and make your dad mad...!

Storms are by far the best thing ever.

We just watched District 9. I told your Dad there was going to be a time when he couldn't just put a movie like that on tv. He said it was ok. You and I could go to bed and he would watch it alone.....SOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo dad. But you did fall asleep during it. So that's good! Don't know how.

We sold a puppy today Lucy. I'm so glad that they're starting to go now, but so sad :/ And so concerned! I hope they all end up in good, loving homes. I always thought it strange that when we got our dog, the owners never cared to follow up. I'm telling all these families that when they take one of these puppies, they're attached to me for life. Email is my favourite!

Ok so this blog was hardly even about you. But it was about my day! So that counts right?

Definitely bed time :) Will write more toooooooooooooomorrrow! (hopefully the internet stays ON :D)

<3 you! Ma

Wow

Dear Lulu,
It was almost weird this morning to wake up and WOAH! There's Dad. It's pretty cool to see your interaction with him since you obviously haven't seen him in a little while. People think babies have these attention spans of a goldfish, but you seemed to know right away. You even reached out to him! Of course, you still cried if I "disappeared" but I'm going to assume you've simply made that a habit now *sigh*

I'm really glad that you remember him. I hope we don't scar you for life with him randomly showing up and disappearing. At least it's the same guy coming back! I know he's glad to be back with you, and I'm overjoyed for his sake that you aren't treating him like some random street bum.

I'm trying to limber up for our walk to church today, but mannnnn I'm stiff! Brad has already voiced his stance and will be driving. I wish he'd at least give it a shot. It's really quite nice to get outside and enjoy the fact that you're not in a rush. You can't do anything else until you get where you're going. But I guess I understand since it's not that long ago that I was driving to the silliest of places.

Well, I guess I should get ready. You're still asleep with Dad. I know that's his favourite part of the mornings :P

But then you don't windmill the crap out of his chest with your razor claws. I only feel peace when I think about all the strife you're going to cause him between ages 10 and 25. Ahhhhhh

I love you mucho mucho mucho

Ma





I just included this picture because you look pretty cute. You and your little walking buddy Grayson :D (Lucy's been picking up younger men for awhile now.)

Hip Hip Hooray!

Dear Lucy,
Daddy's coming home! Just called to say he'd be on the 5:00 ferry. But there's bad news, too. Mom was napping when he called. Bahaha 90% sure the house will be a disaster when he gets here. Cross off being cleaner from the new years resolution list.

It's worth it though. You seem to be having an off day....randomly crying, not happy anywhere. So we just laid down together and you drifted off while filling up your little gut. I think I just sort of passed out. I haven't had a nap in so long! It felt so good to not really care about the mess, or walking the dogs, or anything really except making sure that you fell asleep comfortably. I think I will add to my new years resolution list to take a nap more often. Even if its just once a week or two. Being able to lay down for 1/2 an hour feels soooooooooooooooo good!

The one thing you did do today was actually use your jolly jumper!!! I was starting to think I should have bought you the "jolly hang here limply and cry". I'm so happy I got to see your face light up when you realized that you were actually able to put your own life in jeopardy. I should have gotten one that you can't fly out the top of.

I've 100% decided to put off solid foods another month. Then I'll start digging out the plastic baby spoons again. I'm not ready yet.

It's about me. It's always about me!

Love you tons!

Ma

PS: How do you feel about pumpkin puree? mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Birth Story

Ok Lucy,
So, if I haven't complained about it enough to you by the time you're ready to read this, I guess now is the time. I have had the suggestion that I should write out my birth story for you. My first thought was, do I really want to relive it AGAIN (you all know how many times you talk about it after the fact....gets kind of repetitive! :P) But really, you weren't that bad. When I compare my labour with other people I feel really, really lucky...in most ways.

You were also probably the easiest pregnancy ever. In the beginning I was tired a lot. But that was it. I never puked. Not even once. I might have felt queasy a couple times. But nothing major. I had VERY mild symptoms. Even when I went to the hospital at 34 weeks I didn't think there was anything going on. THANK GOD for Trish who convinced me to go to the hospital lol. Otherwise you might have been born at home :D

So I went to the hospital with nothing because I always think I'm over reacting. And of course they sent me to Nanaimo (after determining I was actually in labour...who knew?) because Port Alberni's Ob/Gyn decided to go on vacation that day. So you and I had a most excellent ambulance ride at 3am. The driver even turned the lights on when he got close to someone on the highway. And so we got to Nanaimo and they stopped the labour from progressing. Stuck you back in sucker. There was a benefit to this! I got to see Dad, because he rushed home (for nothing? maybe, maybe not :P), and I also got to get another ultrasound of you! Of course...you looked REALLY weird. I was almost scared to have you. Mogwai baby.

Anyways, THEY WOULDN'T LET ME LEAVE! I was stuck in that damn hospital for 2 weeks. With no time to set up care for my dogs, or pack a bag. I had no toothbrush. Zip. I lived like an inmate until I was FINALLY at 36 weeks pregnant. Which apparently is when Port Alberni feels comfortable delivering babies. I spent two weeks being insulted by nurses who felt that "they shouldn't even be keeping [me] there, I was just taking up a bed", and eating hospital food, doing STUPID puzzles, playing solitaire on my phone and listening to about 100 women a day scream bloody murder while birthing babies. And you wouldn't budge! I'm pretty much 100% sure I had a hind leak that whole time so I'm luck you don't have cerebral palsy or something (ignorant, maybe. I dont know what causes cerebral palsy).

ANYWAYS! YAY! I got to go home at 36 weeks. But guess what... There was a stipulation. I had to take an ambulance again. What the heck? ROFL So off we went again...zoooooooooooooooooom weeeeeooooowweeeeooooo. Lights on again! it would have been more exciting if I wasn't strapped to a board.

Get to the hospital when the great and wonderful Ob/Gyn was back from his glorious vacation. If only I'd been so lucky. He did the 5 point inspection and told me I wouldn't make it til Thursday (it was Sunday...)

So I went home and...I opened the door and....i almost fell to my knees. My house..was....DISGUSTING! My dogs had ravaged the place (yes someone was watching them...apparently just letting them out to go to the bathroom and not playing with them....). It was the most horrible thing to come home to ever.

So I slept on the couch and envisioned how I'd spend the last 4 weeks of my pregnancy cleaning up this disaster.

I woke up Monday morning and went and rented a carpet cleaner with an upholstery attachment. And I cleaned my couches, and my mattress (which was dirty from the dogs...grrrr) and anything else that I could. And I tried to clean up the rest of the house, but I was ginormous....so really not much else got done. And I went and rented two movies, movies I knew Brad would NEVER watch with me hahah: He's just not that into you, and Confessions of a Shopaholic.

Then I fell blissfully asleep with you rumbling around deep within. Little did I know....

That you were just waiting for me to get home before trying again. You're just like your father...inconvenient. So I woke up at 2:40am on July 7th in pain. Not that bad, but I pretty much knew it was on this time. 10 minutes later I had another one, so I called your Dad, he told me to go back to bed it was probably nothing again ROFL

I told him this was it and he better get on the 6:30 ferry. Then I called your Grandma Sue to come and pick me up. But nobody answered. So I figured I'd just wait a little while....you're supposed to ride out the easy stuff at home, right? hahahaha

Then I had another one..10 minutes later. This one curled me up into a little ball ROFL. And then, thank God, your grandma called me back. She came and got me...and this time...I packed a damn bag. It was like speed packing! I was amazing.

Anyways, got the hospital at 3:30, and we were already at 5cm! You have no idea what that means.

Then...they checked at 4:00 and we were 9! They couldn't believe it. Like I said...awesome. The doctor wasn't there yet, so I conveniently informed them that I felt like I was going to push. They said...dont push. I said...too bad! They said...pant. So I tried that...sort of worked...but it's kind of weird to be laying in this bed panting. The contractions weren't that bad. I think I had maybe 2 that had me white knuckling the sides of the bed. Finally they let me push and after an hour and a half you came out like a jello jiggler at 6:52am.

Dad was on the ferry with Granny Sharon. Mom had chewed up 1/2 the squatting bar. But you were out!

That's pretty much the story. The first thing I said to you was "Thank God you're cute!"

I'll never get that ultrasound picture out of my mind..

*shudder*

Love you always!

mUmmY